whatever. whatever.

so im the type of person that when i get really stressed out or overwhelmed i just cant eat. or when i do eat its like the smallest amount ever. and after i eat i feel like im going to puke everywhere. so for the past however long ive been feeling this way. it sucks. i guess you call that being nauseous, but i dont know. i feel soo nauseous right now and it sucks. but it also doesnt help that im a really picky eater and when i do it i dont eat in a normal way. i have to pick everything apart, cut things up, look at it to see if it appeals to me. sometimes when i know i like something but it looks weird i cant eat it. i know thats really bad but maybe one day ill get better and can eat whatever. maybe my parents leaving is a good thing for my eating habits. but also a bad thing cause im going to starve myself. i remember one time i went over to stevie and devins house and she tired to make me rice. it wasnt the best rice i have eaten, and she knew that, but she gave it an effort. and i wanna go back and eat some of the crunchy rice and see little franklin. but i also dont wanna drive there cause im driving stick and im really paranoid about driving it places. cause it scared im going to hit someone or someone is going to hit me. i cant even have the heat or radio on while im driving. its so bad. but its all good.